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“picking up dishes…throwing them at you.”

these past few weeks have definitely been hard. ive reverted to going back to feeling lonely…i don’t know what it is or how to make it go away. i have an amazing group of friends and my family is great. ive been able to open up to my mom alot more about things…but its still hard to because i know its difficult to hear her daughter struggling and she of course put the “mom” point of view on it. i have so much going for me and alot to focus on but there is still this block up that i wish would just go down so i can be me again. ihate this feeling. things have changed so much, but ive learned from it all. but now i have a feeling that my life is about to make the biggest change of all…its just a matter of if i have the strength to determine whether or not its happening…..

ummm thats a rough one….probably spending the summers with my grandmom and going to south carolina

charles john worlinsky <3 this guy showed me that life is worth living…and that true love does exist. though i have only known him for a short time..i feel as though my life is more complete now that i have him in it. i have more ups than downs…i smile more than i thought i ever could…the miles may be vast but the love i have for him will last a lifetime. i know it sounds so corny and so immature to say im in love with him after only knowing him for less than a month…but i feel for him so fast…he saw me when i was invisible..he picked me up from the lowest low and made me his number one. the time i have spent with him has been utterly AMAZING!!! and im hoping for a lifetime more of amazing times. i love you baby…12-22-11…u made the end of a completely horrible year sooooo amazingly better :)